Wednesday, January 1, 2020

What I Loved about 2019

Going into 2019 was full of fear and the unknown, probably more than any year of our marriage. We had just experienced a pregnancy loss and were so unsure about how to move forward plus my dad had just had a miraculous liver transplant and we were waiting to see how things would go with that. Not to mention other family medical scares and some really low lows from all of it.  

And yet, we're heading into 2020 with confidence that God is at work in our lives and that seasons of life are just that, seasons. We can look back and know that He never left our sides even when we felt so alone and hopeless. Our tears were seen, our cries were heard, and our prayers were answered. This is the same confidence we're taking into 2020; No matter what challenges and celebrations come our way, we're not alone. 

Here are my favorites from 2019:

Our community of people
This is at the top because it is the biggest one. It's so big that I have a hard time putting it into words. We are so loved by our families and friends that it's overwhelming in a way that makes it feel impossible to ever show the same amount of love and support to them. From making date nights possible to helping us rearrange our home for foster care to surprise Christmas gifts to prayer for our family in all things we are surrounded by people who selflessly care for us. It's easy for me to focus on all the imperfectness when it comes to family and those we share our lives with but this year made it really tough to live there. Thank God! I have come to appreciate our family and friends in a whole new way and my heart couldn't be fuller. 

Sunday & Monday dinner
Our friends open up their home every Sunday for dinner and we open up our home every Monday for dinner. I'm not going to lie, so many nights I think that I'd rather be getting ready for the week or taking a nap or folding laundry but we go or we open our door and never regret it. Even the nights when it feels like we're all counting down the minutes to bedtime and our conversations are interrupted a gazillion times by the gazillion kiddos, it's still worth every minute. These nights are the nights life truly happens. 

Creating a family culture and traditions
I'm not sure if Josh agrees with me, but I finally started feeling like myself around the time Maverick turned two in June. Life seemed less heavy; I was able to move through life with certain ease I hadn't felt for a long time! We were sleeping better, I was getting time to myself almost every morning, and both kiddos had enough independence that I could take a bath when Josh was at work and they were still awake. All of this allowed us room for family movie nights, Knott's Berry Farm trips, Saturday AM waffles, parent-kiddo dates, storytime, regular dinners with friends and family, and prayer. Payton and Maverick absolutely LOVE our family movie nights. We set up the pull-out couch, grab all our snugglies and pillows, make popcorn, and just enjoy being together. Most of us usually fall asleep before the end of the movie. 

Growing our family
We found out we were pregnant over the summer and were thrilled! This pregnancy has been my hardest and most joyful. My body jumped into full pregnancy gear from what felt like the beginning, which has made just being pregnant not my favorite; however, Payton and Maverick totally understand what's happening and interact with him through talking and singing to my belly and hugging and kissing it. It's absolutely precious. Then, in October we began the journey of fostering a teen. I'm not going to say it has been a flawless experience but I will say that even during the hard moments, we know she's part of our family and we're all where we're supposed to be. It has been simply beautiful to see God's hand at work through all of it. We're definitely not leaning on our strength alone. 

I have no idea what 2020 has to offer, but there has not been a year without joy, laughter, tears, and mourning. Life ebbs and flows, there is no way around it. This year I'm choosing to trust God in it all. I'll do it imperfectly, but I'll do it because the alternative is way scarier than facing it knowing I have the creator of the universe in me, guiding me every step of the way. 

How are you entering 2020? Is there something exciting on the horizon? Is it full of the unknown? No matter what life brings, let's remember that we need one another. 

Happy New Year, friends! 

Also, my favorite posts from this year in no particular order...


  1. What a great list! It sounds like you had a fulfilling 2019 so here's to hoping 2020 is just as wonderful for you!

  2. It sounds like you had an amazing year! I can't wait to see what this year has in store for both of us!!

    1. Kileen, that's so sweet! Yay for a new year and a new decade.

  3. Sounds like you had a full year. I wish all the best for you in 2020!

    1. Lecy, you as well. Thanks for stopping by.

  4. Ahh! Props to you for fostering a teen and congrats on the pregnancy!

    1. Thank you! I appreciate the props...we're just doing what we feel led to do :)

  5. Congrats on the pregnancy! And happy new year!!